Sometimes looking like idiot is okay

I am a perfectionist. Well, I’m a perfectionist in the sense that if I can’t do something perfectly then I don’t do it. I do not like looking like an idiot, or like I don’t know something. But, things are changing.

A few months ago I started Tae Kwon Do, and being a 25 year old beginner is full of the horrid awkwardness of not knowing something and looking like a complete dunderhead. Have you ever seen someone that has almost zero control of their body; because, that’s exactly what it looked like when I started. Since starting Tae Kwon Do I’ve realized that no one expects you to be able to know how to do something as a beginner, and I’ve started to let go of my perfectionism. I know I look like a idiot with my arms of legs flailing about while I try, and oh God do I try, to master a kick, punch, or block, but you know what? So does everyone else when they’re learning something new. It’s just so much easier to laugh at myself when I get absolutely lost in a form or during floor drills than to beat myself up. I don’t have the time to beat myself up over a mistake anyway.

It’s really freeing to just do something without focusing on doing everything perfectly all the time. And you know the best thing? It’s starting to leak over into other aspects of my life. I’m becoming more comfortable speaking German with HB, and having fun at Agility (although that’s over for the year. SAD!), for example. It’s great! What positive, yet, unintended consequences have happened to you when you started a new hobby?

It’ll grow. Slowly but surely, it will grow.

I have made a horrible life decision. I’ve decided to grow my hair out. I love my pixie, but, honestly, I kind of miss the length. I can’t figure out why, though, because I never did anything with it except straighten it. BUT having longer hair will ultimately end up saving us quite a bit of money. I mean, getting a haircut every five to six weeks starts to add up quickly…especially when you tend to splurge a bit when it comes to having your hair done. Plus the idea of trying to find somewhere to get my hair cut in Germany is mildly terrifying; that and, I’ve seen some awful pixie cuts in Germany. I would like to try to avoid more awful haircuts than I’ve already experienced in my life…or awful hairstyles that I’ll be experiencing in the coming months thanks to growing out my short hair. Can I just sleep through like the next six months or so and wake up with decent hair?

It’s been almost two months since I decided to grow it out. I wish I could say I’ve seen more growth than I have, but that’s not the case. When I made the decision I decided to go on a buying spree for products to help my hair stay healthy and hopefully promote growth. While I’m not sure if they’ve helped with growth they’ve definitely helped to keep my hair healthy, which is key when growing out a pixie cut. So what did I buy? My first stop was the vitamin aisle. I remembered reading that both Biotin and Prenatal vitamins help with hair, skin, and nails, and being that I have an aversion to anything pregnancy related I opted for Biotin. (The only thing I plan on nurturing in my uterine area is my brand-spanking-new IUD. Is that too much information? Oh well, there’s no turning back now, you’re in too deep. [Oh, God! What a horrible, unintended pun! I am so sorry!])

After the vitamin aisle I found my way to the hair care section. Here is where I went a little crazy. I grabbed a handful of hairbands, bobby pins, and tiny little clips for when my hair just can’t be contained with hair products anymore. In addition to the hair controlling accessories I grabbed some dry shampoo (HOW HAVE I NEVER EXPERIENCED THIS BLESSING BEFORE?!), Not Your Mother’s Way to Grow shampoo and conditioner, and a hair mask that was on sale. (Who turns down a sale?) Contrary to the name, Way to Grow does not say that it will make your hair grow. It does, however, say that it is meant to help improve the health of your hair, because, as it says on the container, “healthier hair means longer hair, faster.” It is also sulfate, paraben, and dye free so that’s a plus, if that’s your thing. As for the hair mask: curly and frizzy hair really can’t be too conditioned, can it? I don’t think so, but just in case I’m wrong I try to use it only once a week…if I remember.

Even though none of this stuff has magically made my hair grow, sadly, I can’t say that I regret buying any of it. At the very least my hair will be super healthy, and can anyone really complain about that? Hopefully by the time HB and I move I will be through all the awkward hair growth stages, because I will be absolutely mortified if I have to have another ID picture that looks awful. If we ever meet in person and you want to see an awful picture of me just ask to see my passport photo. To anyone else that’s growing out a pixie cut, what are your go-to products/things to help your hair?

Because I enjoy embarrassing myself on the internet I’ve got another story from my weird childhood.

I’ve always been kind of fascinated with Renaissance festivals. That alone should be weird enough, but, again, I like to outdo myself with how weird I can be. I had one of my birthday parties there once. It wasn’t so much a party as it was a few friends, my poor family, and I went to the RenFair for my birthday. If it wasn’t so expensive I would have insisted upon renting a costume as well, but, alas, it was a few hundred dollars. So what’s a girl to do? Well if you’re this girl you buy something that becomes your go-to accessory for the next few months? Years? What accessory could possibly be so amazing to become my number 1 accessory? A snood. What the hell is a snood, you ask? It’s a hairnet, but don’t you dare call it a hairnet to little Brittany! She’ll insist that it should be called by it’s proper name, or she’ll get all pouty and throw a tantrum.

I didn’t even get a cute one. I walked around for the longest time looking like I moonlighted in the school cafeteria. It might explain why the food was always awful. You might ask yourself “why would your parents let you run around looking like a miniature lunch lady?” That’s a good question, friend, and I assume the answer is something along the lines of “you have to pick your battles.” Most kids go through a weird fashion phase. Some of us just have weirder and longer phases than others…to our mother’s extreme displeasure and embarrassment. I almost feel bad that she had to suffer through being seen with me in public, but then I remember all the embarrassing things she did in public and don’t feel so bad. So in case you’re ever having a not so great fashion day just remember that at least you don’t accessorize with a hairnet.

Welp, it’s official.

I just purchased our one-way tickets from Atlanta to Germany. HB got into his Master’s program so we’re officially leaving September 1st for our next life adventure. Now I need to get my shit together and sell everything that we aren’t bringing with us, get the animals squared away, and make sure I’ve got any and all documents we could possibly need. These next few months will be stressful, trying, and nerve wrecking, but in the end it’s (hopefully) going to be worth it. Now, would anyone like to come do all this for me? Any takers? Anyone? Anyone at all? Bueller? Bueller?

Germany, I’ll be seeing you in five months.

Brittany and her semi-loyal, four-legged companion journey into dog sports

It’s been a while since I’ve talked about Nyx on the blog. The Hell Hound and I have been rather busy. In October I decided to put her into Agility. If you have no idea what Agility for dogs is it’s basically an obstacle course that the dog runs. And  if you’d like to see dogs in action here is a link to the 2017 Crufts Singles Finals.

Nyx absolutely loves it. Neither of us are great at it. If you’re picturing us running like the dogs and handlers in the video you are way off, as you’ll see in the upcoming videos. An Agility class for us is usually full of Nyx attempting to run off to do ALL THE THINGS or running by her doggy friends trying to get them to play (if she isn’t on leash) while I’m crying on the inside and yelling “come here!” after her. It’s an experience. Thank the doggie gods that neither she nor the majority of the dogs in class are aggressive. There are two Spaniels that generally hate everyone, but they (thankfully) haven’t been there in a while. Not that they’re bad dogs, just all around grumps that appear have a case of “littermate syndrome”.

This was a good night. She’s currently in her teenager phase, and has become an all around terror. Honestly, why are all teenagers, animal and human alike, such pains?! I know it’s only temporary, but it is awful, just awful. Pray for me, because I want to pull my hair out and cry.

Thankfully, though, through Agility, I have made some wonderful dog lady friends and mentors. One of those mentors convinced me to try another sport with her and another friend. She has a Catahoula Leopard Hound that, like Nyx, is extremely high energy. After a few weeks watching them she casually mentioned something called Fast C.A.T. It’s essentially a 100 yard dash for dogs where they time them as well as measure how fast they run. She wanted to see who was faster Nyx or her pup so a few weeks later we were signed up and in Florida ready to run our dogs. Turns out, Nyx is faster. She ran 27 mph (about 43 kph). When the results are finally added she will be tied for the fastest German Shorthaired Pointer for Fast C.A.T. I’m pretty proud of her, but not as proud as HB is. He’s hung her ribbons on the fridge, and has told all his coworkers about how well she’s done. It’s kind of adorable.

So what do we have in store for the near future when it comes to dog sports? Well I’d like to get into Barn Hunt. You have your dog search for a tube with a rat in it. No rats are harmed. And if everything goes according to plan we will have a Tracking workshop on the 25th. This dog better know she’s loved with all the fun and expensive things we’ve done to ensure she’s happy, healthy, and well exercised.

My current favorite facial care products

If you have not heard of, or used, anything by Shea Moisture please do yourself a favor and go buy everything they sell. Alright, maybe not everything, but you should definitely check it out. I will conveniently provide you with the link right here.

What I love about this company:

  • For starters, I love how inclusive it is. They have products for ALL skin colors and hair types, skin types, all genders, moms and babies, etc.
  • They are cruelty free, which is ALWAYS a great thing.
  • They are fair trade, sustainable, organic…you know what I’m just going to post what they have as their ethical standards on their website so you can read it for yourself:
    • Our Ethical Standards

              We are natural, organic, sustainably-produced goodness. Made with love for you    and your body. Pioneering fair trade through Community Commerece at home and abroad. We strive to be sulfate free, paraben free and more, whenever possible. Tested on our family for four generations. Never on animals.

  • Most of the products I’ve used make my face feel fairies kissed it. That’s a bit extreme, but they do make my face feel wonderful.

So what have I used? I have used the African Black Soap Problem Skin Facial Mask (personal favorite), Coconut & Hibiscus Facial Mask (my face didn’t handle this one too well, sadly), one with Frankincense and Myrrh that is no longer on their site, sadly,  and the African Black Soap Problem Skin Moisturizer. The little tub of moisturizer is kind of expensive, but I’ve had it for a couple months now and I’ve barely made a dent in it. So it’s well worth the money, and will last a while.

If you live in the U.S. I know there are small packets at Walmart, and possibly Target, for around a dollar. I definitely recommend grabbing a few and seeing what works for you. Just don’t be like me and think you have to put the entire package on your face in one go. The package lasts for a few weeks if you use it sparingly, use it once or twice a week, and make sure it’s sealed properly (a plastic baggy (Ziplock) works just fine).

If anyone reads this and is interested, please share your favorite beauty products with me. I’m always open to new product suggestions.

Graduate!

It’s officially official! I am a graduate! I have the degree in hand and everything so they can’t change their minds. What’s life like as a graduate? Boring and soul crushing. Not really. It’s about the same as when I was in school, except I don’t go to class, and my loans are due. I’ve been applying to any and every job I can get my grubby hands on, but so far no luck. It’s a bit of a downer to be turned down repeatedly, but rejection is part of life. At least I’ve graduated. I’ll just hold onto that I get a job. (Someone hire me!)